Hey Everyone! Today's post is getting to you much later than expected--actually, I'm realizing that the majority of my posts in the last couple of weeks have been slightly delayed. I had this really cool idea for a post I was going to share with you all today but, honestly, I'm just not feeling it right now so that'll have to wait for another day. I can really relate to the Bangles' 'Manic Monday' song a whole lot today! I'm really laughing as I type this. A delirious laugh, nonetheless.
So why does today feel so manic? The events of my day weren't really crazy or too out of the ordinary. My day just didn't go exactly the way I planned. You see, I had a bit of a scheduling mix-up. Here's what happened:
I was on one side of town and was about to be helped by someone I waited a good hour to see. Two seconds before I was called back, I looked at my calendar and realized I had another appointment (that I waited weeks for) scheduled to start within 5 minutes on the other side of town. It was so frustrating walking out of that first office so close to when I was about to be seen and realizing that I may have lost out on another appointment I waited weeks for. I woke up that morning thinking my other appointment was a couple of days away. Realizing that it was actually today was heartbreakingly frustrating. I stepped out of line and lost my place to try to make it to the appointment I waited so long for. I called the office with a desperate plea to try to hold on to my appointment but an answering machine picked up. So I did the next best thing...I called my mom. I called my mom with the purpose of venting a bit and getting some advice. Being the great mom that she is, she gave me some sound advice: take a few deep breaths and try to call again.
I heeded my mom's advice: I breathed and called one more time-- this time I got through. After driving halfway to the other location, the voice on the other end of the phone told me that my appointment wasn't today. My appointment was, indeed, the day my brain told me it was and the date I wrote on my calendar was incorrect. I could hardly believe it. My brain was right and my calendar was wrong! Needless to say, I went back to the other location and waited another hour to be helped and was then transferred to another location two wait for another 2 hours to be seen. BUT, I'm okay with that! You know why? I just crossed off a huge task on my to-do-list that I've been putting off for months!! For that, I feel like I accomplished something significant. The delirious laughter continues...
I have to laugh. I have to laugh because over the past two days I've been praying intentionally that God will plan my days. I'm a planner, and I have a tendency to plan everything down to the last microsecond of the day, if possible. Two weeks ago, I charted out a pretty thorough personal & professional schedule for the next 2 months but I felt convicted by it. I don't think there's anything wrong with planning or being organized, but sometimes I take things to the extreme. And my ultra-thorough schedule didn't leave much room or flexibility for God to orchestrate things in my life. I'm blessed to be able to work from home as it gives me some freedom with my schedule; I want to ensure I'm using it in a way that's pleasing to Him. After that conviction, I started praying that God would and will continue to show me how I should spend my time and who I should spend it with. During my quiet time this morning, I continued with this prayer. As you may be able to gather from the story I shared, I definitely learned that my calendar and schedule may be slightly flawed (uhhh...yeah...).
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
Here's looking to a not so manic but just as productive Tuesday!